Listening to... a mouse or other small creature running around in the space between our living room ceiling and the room above. It's quiet at home since everyone else is at church. I've been sick with another diverticulitis attack since Tuesday.
Planning... to finish up preparations for Christmas, though because I've been sick, I haven't had motivation to do very much of it. I've ordered some presents on-line and made a couple of batches of peanut brittle. Other than that, as often happens to me around this time of year, I'm nervous that I won't have it all done in time.
Wishing... that I could become the organized "together" person that I often think I see other people being. I start things I don't finish, can't get my home in order and I gather up enthusiasm for things that often seem to fall flat. Well, I guess I'm a little depressed because of the illness. Again. At Christmas.
Thinking about... wanting to be more like the mom I was to the first three for Aubrey. At 51, it feels like it's so much harder to do all the crafts, activities and things I did with them. We baked cookies for Christmas, did crafts, did "count-down" to Christmas calendars and more. I'm sorry for my what my age and my illnesses do to make things less exciting for her.
Craving... not much since I've been sick and haven't had much of an appetite. But I was thinking about the soup from a local diner - cream of turkey! Yum! I know my dear husband would bring some home if I asked... (stop everything to text in that request).
Looking forward to... Renae coming home for Christmas... and getting Christmas preparations done!
Last I wrote I was working on... Three areas of discipline in my life: Eating better, exercising, and spending time in the Word of God. Talk about things you gather up enthusiasm for and then they fall flat... that's the relationship between those three things and me. After this illness, where I've been eating very little, maybe I can do better with healthy eating. Excercise... not so sure. Since my body hurts most of the time (between fibromyalgia and spinal stenosis), I don't have much "get-up-and-go". And spending more time in the Word of God... I always have my cycles of determining to start anew and then falling off. Is this something that I can change about me? Do I even want to change it?
Reading... nothing comes to my mind because I've been flooding it with watching the entire 7 seasons of the Gilmore Girls. I just finished that, so maybe there's room for a book, now.
Feeling: Down and still sick.
Making me happy: Jessa is home, Erin & Brandon live nearby and they've blessed us with the miracle of a grandson to add joy to our family. No matter how down I get, these blessings should not be taken for granted!
And as I view this beautiful Christmas tree, I'll go on to... Eating and drinking a little something and then taking a bath. Sounds like those things could work to help cheer me up a bit.
